Post #17- GOD Is Good All The Time!!!

Here's the results. It is localized and has only spread to my lymph nodes. So that is a wonderful thing. Thank you GOD and thank all of you for your prayers and support. Don't stop because I still need them more than ever. :) Here's the issue, when they did the initial surgery they thought they were just removing a blood filled cyst they did not get enough breast tissue to test to be 100% sure my breast cancer is not estrogen produced. So they need more tissue and they would like to biopsy a lymph node. So I could get the biopsy (plus take some more breast tissue for testing), chemo, possible lumpectomy or mastectomy, radiation and finally reconstruction. That's a lot. Plus I am really set on a mastectomy, I am in a lot of pain in fact I am in pain 24 hours a day. I want both breast removed because I don't want 5-10 years to pass and I develop breast cancer in the other breast. I was told they want me to think about it for the psychological aspects. Here is how I see it. Breast gone, cancer not growing anymore. I don't want chemo first knowing that I have an aggressive cancer growing inside me, I want it out and in the trash can. As far as vanity sake, reconstruction is fine. I would rather have the mastectomy, chemo ( for 6 months), radiation and then reconstruction. My oncologist and surgeon wanted me to think on it so I wouldn't regret it later. My radiological oncologist who I will be seeing Monday said if I was comfortable with it then it would be good to do. So that's the plan. So I could have surgery as early as next week. It's so much more to talk about but I'm beat down. My body aches and I hope I am not getting a cold. So Iam going to take some Thera Flu warming medicine and drink some Knudsen's mega antioxidant drink and go to sleep. I'm going to pray. I know GOD will lead me in the right direction. Prayer works!!!!!!!! Faith works!!!!!!!! I'll talk to you all when I wake up. :) I'm so happy I just want to cry. When I tell you how long this cancer has been growing and that I was very close to the end... It's just so much so I'll post as soon as I wake up. I did cry today because GOD has been so good to me even when I haven't been good to myself. It's amazing how happy I am. I know I have this cancer in me but I have never felt more alive that's why I know I am going to beat this with GOD's help. I know it's going to be a long painful road but I'm going to make it. One day at a time and I am going to praise him all the way.